This time around on the Planet I have no sisters in my family. Since we started running into spiritual family members over and over again, I now have adopted some of them as my Sisters. And they are all wonderful! When we are together, my Sisters and I love to travel together. Sometimes we travel in our 3d-reality of this Earthplane, and sometimes in meditation into other realms and dimensions. We just find ourselves a quiet space, close our eyes and take off… Most of the time we keep good track of each other, and it is fun and very interesting.

The last time that we were doing this, I had a special experience. Well, it is allways special, but this time it was just different. When we took off this time, I saw a portal opening and we were supposed to go through that, to get to wherever we had to be at that moment. In stead of following my Sisters, I found myself wrapped in something, drifting off somewhere into the sky. It appeared to be the cloak of someone holding me. It was the deepest, velvet black that you can imagine. Actually it felt like ‘inversed light’. And the person or being that this cloak belonged to, was just a being of that same deep, black, velvet-like inversed light. I felt very comfortable, nurtured, welcomed and experienced a deep feeling of all-encompassing love. At the same time I was overwhelmed by so many emotions that I got confused. Anyway, in a distance, I noticed my Sisters going through the gate/portal. It felt like I was just taking a different route, a ‘detour’, and that I would reach the same destination anyway, so I surrendered and listened to what my Sisters were telling and tried to figure out what I was feeling and who this Being was that was holding me and taking me into other realms.

After some time we arrived at a place where my Sisters were already waiting for me. It seemed to be the planet Redora (or Radora). It felt very much like Home. There were beings waiting for us there, and they shared some messages with us before we were to continue on our journey. My emotional state at that point was anything but calme, there was this immense sadness growing in my chest and my heart was beating like crazy. I found that I could not move until I had assimilated the energy and meaning of this encounter with this deep-black velvet-like inversed light-being, who had brought me to this place and who was still standing there. My Sisters helped me to understand and to literally assimilate the energy of this Being and this event, and finally we were ready to move on. We continued on our journey, which lead us to pretty places, wonderful worlds and interesting meetings. At last we returned to our planet and daily life.
Somehow I was deeply moved by this experience. I felt really different after it and that lasted for several months. Something changed. Because of this special energy in this experience, I started to make a painting that captured that experience.

Here comes the funny part. I wondered who that being was that came to pick me up. I totally forgot the book I just read, titled ‘Wer hat Angst vor dem schwarzen Mann’, (who is afraid of the black man) an interview with Death, also called the Angel of Transition because it is the energy bringing us into this world, and taking us back when we die. This being is mostly depicted as dressed in a black cloak throughout the centuries. The book is very interesting and it really gives you a better understanding of Death anyway.
At some point we had friends over at our house and when one of them mentioned ‘phantom death’, a bell rang in the back of my mind.

What is a Phantom death?

We do a lot of planning before we actually start a life on Earth. We make contracts with other souls to help each other in learning and growing. We make back-up plans, in case someone forgets or just makes a different choice. And just as we carefully plan our point of entry for our life on Earth, we also plan several exit-points, moments that we can leave this planet again if we so choose. Of course the last one is the final one, but the others are possibilities where we can choose to stay, to go, or to make our mind up later (this decision is mostly taken on a soul level, so you don't have to notice it at all).
An exit point doesn’t allways have to present itself in the shape of an event as clear as an accident, severe illness, or other situations where it is obvious a matter of life and death. We call the exit point that you did not take a Phantom death... since you stayed and didn't go home. A phantom death can also present itself in a meditation, or in a dream, as it did in my meditiation. Most people’s life takes a 90 degree turn after a phantom death. They start re-evaluating everything in their lifes and make choices that put themselves first. It may take them some time to figure out again what their passion in life is. Their bullshit- tolerance is extremely low.

Now that I remember, it adds a new dimension to this painting for me. We all have several exit points planned, some people plan a lot of them. A phantom death is a very natural event and sometimes you really don't notice it at all. But most of the time, you notice that there was something special about that moment.. or event.. and that you made changes in your life from that point forward, that were beneficial for you, and in accordance with your heart's desire.